furniture

the best part of being in new york is being able to go into other people’s apartments sometimes when you let people into your apartment you get really embarrassed about small things like how many pairs of socks you own 

sometimes when you let people into your body you get really embarrassed about small things like can they tell by the way I’m touching their hair that my parents are divorced 

I kind of believe that we are always telling the truth that were always letting people know everything about us 

like this guy gave me a ride and I could tell his mom loved him so much it’s all in how he held the steering wheel 

every time I’m in someone’s apartment I imagine it’s my apartment I imagine what it would be like to have coffee in the morning or to fuck someone on the carpet 

every time I have sex with someone I imagine what it would be like to marry them even when that would be like so gross 

I’ll be honest it’s humiliating to do this all the time 

why do I always want to look into the corners of your heart 

I think I might sit very still in this chair for awhile and just not get up

Nora Rose Tomas is a queer writer living in Brooklyn.